If you change the way you look at things, the things you look at change.
-Dr. Wayne Dyer
There could not be a more perfect example of this in my life than the city of Los Angeles. Off and on, for over a decade, I have lived there, dated people from there, worked there, and, for any number of reasons, have repeatedly fled for the safety and space of New Mexico.
Last week, while staying with a friend in Los Feliz, we went for a hike in Griffith Park. I couldn’t help but think of all the times I’d hiked those trails and how different it felt this time, though the trails, air quality, views, perfectly outfitted Angelenos, and full parking lots were more or less the same. I was different. I was present and happy and good with it all being as it was. It didn’t have to be clear, with perfectly blue skies, empty parking lots, and sparse hikers, as I am used to in New Mexico. The misty, overcast air felt wonderful against my skin, even if it was slightly smoggy! While in LA, I gave myself enough time to get places, anticipating traffic, rather than expecting it to be something it wouldn’t be and then resenting it. I saw creative people carrying out their visions everywhere I looked. And, I knew I was ready for LA in a way I never had been before.
LA. I remember feeling so lost within its freeways, strip malls, and sprawl and it is only now that I realize what a perfect metaphor it was for how lost I felt in my life. I was overwhelmed by the emphasis I thought it placed on status and appearance and too insecure and unsure about my own values, contributions, and worth to navigate it.
Over my last several trips to LA, it is as if I have made peace with the city, forgiven it for what it will never be, and realized all that it has to offer. Years ago, my astrologer told me that Venus, the planet of love, art, and beauty, sits directly over LA in my chart. Love, art, and beauty basically sum up all that I value and want to cultivate and create more of in my life. And, to be less philosophical, I am just ready for a change! And I have to keep reminding myself that, as someone who has spent much of her life trying to avoid it, that is a perfectly legit reason to move. I am giddy at the thought of decorating a new apartment, exploring a new neighborhood, meeting new people, going on new day trips, and switching it all up, knowing that I am strong enough to handle all that that might bring. LA hasn’t changed, but I have.
If you enjoy these posts, please follow smagik.com by clicking on the full site and entering your email address in the box below. And, please Share!